BULL

warning: this is all going to sound crazy, but it only barely scratches the surface of the spiritual journey we have been going through for the past few weeks.

my friend justin from minneapolis is in LA visiting before he moves here. seaghna and i had the most indescribable, insane, dream-like spiritual experience of our lives last night which would be literally impossible to explain over the internet to a bunch of people who haven't been living in this house with us for the past two weeks... but to put it VERY simply, we have been freaking out over the fact that everything feels like it is falling to place like a puzzle, positivity is attracting itself, people of the exact type are finding each other after years and years of solitude, negative/bad people are unexpectedly falling out of our lives left and right, and everything just seems to be happening exactly how it was meant to. basically, the following happened because of this photo my friend sean took of the kites i hung on the ceiling above my bed two days ago:

i am freakishly obsessed with symmetry and everything in my life being symmetrical. i took over half an hour deciding which kites i wanted to purchase at a random hole-in-the-wall shop in china town. i decided on three lizards, but they were out of stock and could only sell me the one that was attached to their ceiling. i took that one, and the two birds, having had an incredibly difficult time trying to choose the correct ones. somehow i ended up dedicating my entire day to hanging these things on the ceiling. i knew they had to be symmetrical, but it was extremely hard to do while standing on my tip toes with my neck back, so i'd have to lay down on the bed to see if from the correct perspective and then get back up and adjust them every time. all of the sudden, i just knew the way they should go and stapled them to the ceiling quickly and effortlessly into what you see above.

i posted a photo of it on facebook, and when it loaded, my eyes focused on the negative space, revealing the silhouette of a bull head. my friend sean took the photo above yesterday morning, and that evening, sea and i both had it pulled up on our computers at the same time. i went in her room, and we started talking about how crazy the accidental bull silhouette was, and i wondered what a bull symbolized. she casually mentioned that the bull is the symbol for taurus, and her sister is a taurus, born on may 11. i screamed, "SEAN IS A TAURUS!" which took us down the rabbit hole of symbolism and the huge role it has been playing in our lives the past few weeks.

bull symbolism:

Standing your ground
Providing for your tribe
Self-assertion
Charging through obstacles
Gaining stability and order
Grounding oneself in the wisdom of Nature
Holding true to personal convictions

again, it would be impossible to describe, but every single one of those descriptions of a bull symbol is EXACTLY what we, and our cosmic/magically united group of friends, has been going through for the past 2 weeks. we had just been talking to rachel a few hours earlier about "standing our ground" and "holding true to personal convictions", and how we are all discovering how important and crucial those things are to us.

also before any of this happened, sea and i had been relating on the fact that we have both been completely obsessed with lizards all our lives, since we were little girls. we would each catch them and keep them as pets and they have been really important to us for as long as we can remember. we are also both intensely introverted people who have felt "different" than the rest of the world and couldn't ever quite figure out why, but it was just a gut feeling we have had and trusted for as long as we can remember. sea suggested that we look up lizard symbolism, and that just took us even further...

lizard symbolism:

"fondly regarded as an old family friend"

"the soul that humbly seeks enlightenment"

trusting primal instincts

i know, i know. this probably sounds so fucking insane to anyone just reading this. everything in our lives has been one big sign, lesson, and push into the exact place we are in now, creating a "full circle" effect. every single thing we brought up last night was brought back around to a full circle, leading right to where we have found ourselves, living together in this house. we were both covered in chills from head to toe with all our hairs standing on end. i am convinced that i naturally induced a psychedelic experience, because my brain/vision/thoughts were exactly the same as when i use psychedelic drugs... and i was not on them last night. sea stepped on an electrical cord with her toe and felt a shock ripple through her entire body, which would never usually happen just from stepping on a cord. we are 100% completely convinced that we tapped into something so cosmic and beautiful and perfect that we were absolutely overwhelmed with emotion and were just sitting on my bed in complete shock, trying to come to terms with what we just discovered about our lives.

what happened next is still making our brains hurt, because it is literally the craziest thing that has ever happened to either of us.

as planned for a few days, justin was on his way over. he has never met sea before, and i haven't seen or talked to him since i was in minneapolis over a month ago. he called to let me know he was here. i went outside to get him and apologized that he was about to walk into this sheer madness. he didn't seem bothered at all- he was actually happy to have walked into something so intense and wanted to hear the whole story. we sat down around my bed and started to tell him everything.

we only got to the first part about the bull being a symbol for taurus, and justin looked at us both and said,

"i'm a taurus. may 11th."

then sea and i jumped up and ran out of the house screaming.

justin's band, bollywood. they are fucking incredible and you should listen to their music here.